The life that I wanted , I didn't get and the life that i got I am not sure if it is what I wanted. But then does anyone gets the life that he or she wants? if we like what we get then we think that it did turn out to be alright in the end. And if don't get what we wanted we still say that it did turn out to be alright in the end.
probably because by the end we are so tired that most of us have actually forgotten what we wanted, to begin with. even after getting so much from life, I still am the young girl who wanted to go backpacking around the world with an overnight sleeping bag and camera and a diary of course. To go around traveling and seeing and experiencing life. to look for answers to unknown questions.
But due to family and cultural boundaries, i can never live the life unaccustomed to people around me. being a female I can't go around the world alone. What is this world if you can't live safely alone? The adventurer inside me still kicks in sometimes. the artist inside me still moves a bit and the thinker inside me can't help herself but wonder.
Sometimes I do wonder, is there a person who would know the complete me. Can anyone in this world claim to know me completely? I don't think so, we know each other only the way we want to see each other. Maybe because we are good at hiding our true selves and maybe because none of us has the time to waste finding out things about others. It's easier to not pay attention. It is easier not to step out of our comfort zone.
But after living more than 30 years of my life, I think I am getting fed up with hiding who I am , what I think and what I want. I would probably never get what I want but I will make sure that I at least live the life as the person I actually am. But still, I will not reveal it all to people around me. It can scare people, It can make them run away. Let's take one step at a time, one wish at a time. let's all do that, let us reveal ourselves one layer at a time. So, in the end, it will be easier to say that it was not that bad,it did turn out to be alright!!
probably because by the end we are so tired that most of us have actually forgotten what we wanted, to begin with. even after getting so much from life, I still am the young girl who wanted to go backpacking around the world with an overnight sleeping bag and camera and a diary of course. To go around traveling and seeing and experiencing life. to look for answers to unknown questions.
But due to family and cultural boundaries, i can never live the life unaccustomed to people around me. being a female I can't go around the world alone. What is this world if you can't live safely alone? The adventurer inside me still kicks in sometimes. the artist inside me still moves a bit and the thinker inside me can't help herself but wonder.
Sometimes I do wonder, is there a person who would know the complete me. Can anyone in this world claim to know me completely? I don't think so, we know each other only the way we want to see each other. Maybe because we are good at hiding our true selves and maybe because none of us has the time to waste finding out things about others. It's easier to not pay attention. It is easier not to step out of our comfort zone.
But after living more than 30 years of my life, I think I am getting fed up with hiding who I am , what I think and what I want. I would probably never get what I want but I will make sure that I at least live the life as the person I actually am. But still, I will not reveal it all to people around me. It can scare people, It can make them run away. Let's take one step at a time, one wish at a time. let's all do that, let us reveal ourselves one layer at a time. So, in the end, it will be easier to say that it was not that bad,it did turn out to be alright!!
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